time and time again

i alays wonder wat i plan to achieve in life, but unfortunately it doesnt seem like ill ever succeed...because rlly i am only making achievements for myself, which is much much different then actually wanting to do something

yeah sure i want to write a novel, i want to get it sold and i want it to b as big as LOTR...but wat am i kidding, i dont think ill ever be able to do that...i aim for it...but i wont succeed...that's they way i think. so i keep on trying and trying for it, until i fail, and most of the time i fail cause i didnt try hard enuff....ironic

that doesnt bother me, though, as surprising as it may seem...that's why i always do something and ask pplz opinions...not cause i want to impress them, but because i want them to be impressed...wait wait..now wat i mean is that i want it to be good enuff to make it out there, before it's thrown out into the wild flames of society.

well i dont mean to sound depressing :D im not depressed...my motto is just ride life like a wave ~~~~ woosh ~~~~ lol i dunno ill worry about the future when it comes :D:D;;

^^ well im doing ok otherwise..ack there's a rememberence day essembly today :> snore...i hope my back wont break trying to sit up straight...

lalalala

and i was thinking jade-chan, ur VERY poetic! :P u should right poems..such and such cause rlly there's no "form" to them.....

^^ i think art is meant to break bounderies, that's why i dont like it when ppl tell me how to do art...those r mostly just guidelines ne way

^^ heehee

well : P cya pplz